Not a fiction

I've strayed far away from my initial focus? I should be focusing on my degree but here I am at 1.13 am figuring out how to make pixel arts...

It's just that this is more exciting to me compared to academics. I'm not sure whether I'm just running away from what I'm supposed to do or I really find this more interesting. My parents would say I'm trying to run away because it seems like I like doing things that are 'easier'.

Are you sure pixel art is easier? (Actually it's quite easy)

I do think that making videos are easier. But honestly, what is it that's really difficult in this world? Anything is easy once you set your mind to it. Once you become stupid and only see one goal in front of you, you don't really care about anything else and just walk straight to it, don't you?

What I'm trying to say is, let's put someone who's really interested and passionate in medical studies in my situation. And let's say that someone is stuck with an animation degree. I'm sure she'll stay up at nights watching those countless youtube videos about medical studies. Trust me, 90% of the infos retained in my head about medical studies are from youtube videos. Oh, is that why I'm stupid? lol

So I'm not really sure if I'm running away or I'm really interested. And whether my parents are right or wrong.

A lot of times I've stated what I really wanted to do and they listened. They do. Only to give me 10 reasons why I should not do what I really want to.

I mean, as a 17 years old, are my wishes that easy to be pushed aside?

I'm really jealous of my friends who are really passionate about their studies. Be it medical, literature, maths, physics, archeologies... They put their whole lives into their studies and apply their studies to their lives. U.Ra.Ya.Ma.Shi.

But maybe it's my fault too for not being more persistent.

How to become an adult in this situation? I'm starting to think my parents aren't the kind of adults I want to be.

Actually my parents told me that I should find money first, then I can do whatever I want to. But I'm getting impatient. Well, I'll just think this degree is also in my path of achieving my dreams.

My dream doesn't stop after graduating. It continues until I die.