Timeless?

I think I really like psychiatry. Is it because it's easy? I still can't find the answer whether I'm just running away from more difficult things or that I think psychiatry is easy because I like it.

I mean, it is very interesting.

Imagine, all of the world mysteries. ALL OF IT. What if all of it is just because someone's brain had chemical imbalance and it resulted in hallucinations?

Right now, my view of the world and the whole fiction industries is changing. Some of the character's plot also sounds like symptoms to me. Believing you have some mission to do? Or that you are an alien? Or  someone is out to get you? That is delusion. And it can be treated.

Okay so this might come to "then, are ghosts real?"

So as a Muslim, we need to believe in Alam Ghaib. We need to believe that a world we cannot see and feel exists. I still believe in that. But are ghosts included in that Alam Ghaib? jeng jeng jeng.

And one more thing I'm interested in is horror games. mannn that is a mental illness on a whole other level. Like the best way to understand what is going through someone's mentally ill mind is through horror games. Examples are "In the Dead of The Night" about someone who has dissociative disorder. Bruh the game even included predisposing factor in which the guy was abused by his father until he was 2 years old when he witnessed his mother killing his father. That trauma gave an impact to his fragile mind.

But of course, I don't play the games. Especially horror. I wouldn't have been able to move from the starting point and end up dying just like that.

What I think about mentally ill people is, they lack support. Normally, we have friends and a supportive family. But in these people, they don't have that. So when they are faced with problems, they are left to handle it alone. So the brain had to make up an extra support. It can come in the form of delusions or hallucinations. That's what I think. Mind you I'm a weak student and I never studied so don't easily trust my opinion. If you still want to then up to you lah.

So, when these people seek for treatment, they're trying to find that lost support. 

There is also that case of family history. These are the people that I pity the most. Like, because of your parents or grandparents' unresolved problem, you had to carry it with you when you didn't even ask for it. Sometimes, they might even force their ideas on you. 

What I can say is, let's work hard in overcoming it okay? We cannot let ourselves stay in such a deep shit for too long. No matter if it hurts, our goal should be to get out of it.

I wish the world can become more lenient on the mentally ill people. And I can see that we, the world, is working towards it. We are working to be a better place for everyone. I haven't lost trust. 

Wahhh so idealistic some people might even puke reading this. hahaahha.