Sweet Monday, isn't it?

I came here without any purpose in mind. Just wanna tell ya that my kitten is sick. Pray for him.

You might think that I always blabber about the smallest matters. Well, I can't possibly brag about my big big problems openly, right?

And yeah, I think that my kitten being sick is a small matter because I believe in its recuperating ability. But I'm also worried at the same time. Is there no doctor that can cure him? I really want him to live a long long life.

So I went to my friend's house and honestly, one day isn't enough to catch up on things. And I don't know when else can we meet. With other friends too. :(

Please, don't take my cat away from me yet. Pretty please with a cherry on top.

hmmm....

I should stop making this a habit. Typing without anything in mind and end up talking endlessly about nothing. But when I choose a topic, I find my thinking field to be very limited and that bothers me a lot. Even doing maths problems, my teacher (or was it my father?) told me not to put a line at the end of the calculation so that my thinking won't be limited. Or at least that was what I comprehended at the age of 7.

btw, the examinations huh? i dont know la hard or easy but i thought i answer good already but still pointer low.

WHAT KIND OF ANSWER DO YOU WANT FROM ME

Medical student?

Honestly, after being a medical student for a whole year, I still can't tell anything about it yet. I don't really know what differentiates me from other courses at this point of my studying year yet. Sure, you have to memorize things a lot, but other courses also have to do that.

So, there's nothing special about being a medical student...yet.

But this kind of thinking may also be caused by my lack of enthusiasm . I'm not really interested in becoming a doctor yet, so that may be why I don't hype anything up.

Don't misunderstand. I'm not saying being a doctor or a medical student is bad. It's great even. It forces you to grow up and think for yourself as well as for others. You also have to build your social skills so it is really good for people who think that they have social anxiety. Like, you want to be a doctor but you have social anxiety? No problem. Your 5 years of study will cure you of your problem and you can become a more outstanding member of society. Only if you want to fix yourself.

But there is also the problem with passing the interviews. blah. Just pray and if it's your rezeki you'll pass.

My teacher in secondary school said that, only the studious type of students can be a doctor.

I can say that that is wrong. Because if you only study, you don't have time to talk to people and I must say the number one important skill in becoming a doctor is communication skills.

I have also seen a houseman stuttering in front of the medical officer, not able to answer the MO's question and eventually humiliated in front of the patient and some medical students. Very embarrassing. I've made it my life goal not to turn into someone like him.

What I think I'm doing so far is, I'm trying to think like a doctor. You know, so that when I become a doctor, I don't have to refer to any book to figure out what I'm going to do next. I want to have that doctor reflex. hahahah

I'm also wondering, how can a doctor remember everything? Do they have good memory? Do they study all the time? Do they see a lot of patients?

But not to worry, because that one time, a doctor had to refer to a book to ask us questions. Meaning that, being a doctor, you don't have to remember everything THAT accurately. Just enough to not disturb your thinking process.

Have you ever experienced it? I'm betting a lot of times. When you're doing your homework, you really want to solve this problem, but you just can't remember one step of the calculation. Just one step and you can't solve the whole problem.

I think I'll stop here today. I just wanted to write about this because I watched a Chinese drama and the main character became a doctor. So it just triggered something in me. hahah, bye. btw, Jiangchen is so handsome and cute, i love him.

Excuse me miss,

Being a pawn in someone's game means you act exactly how the player wants you to. It does not mean you saying yes to everything. That kind of person we call it Yes Man.

I can say that the thing that I hate the most in this life is being played. I don't like it even if it comes from my parents or even if it's for the good of everyone.

Being played means someone is much smarter, cleverer and cunning than you that he/she is able to think of how to make you act how he/she wants. AND I cannot accept that someone is using me to his own benefits. or even for my own benefits.

You want me to achieve something? You want me to be successful? Well then, TELL ME. You don't have to think of a plan, or exploit my weakness or strength.

If I so much as know that you're doing something just so that I will do something, for example, you're scolding me when in reality, you don't even feel like scolding me. So, you're scolding me just so that I would come to my senses and realize what I'm doing is wrong. You're saying bad things to me, just so that I will find the strength to fight back.

THAT IS WHAT I HATE THE MOST. Do not ever think that you are so cunning and powerful that you can manipulate me into being someone that YOU want me to be. If I know your real intention (if I don't know it's fine la, but usually I know) I won't react to it. So to say, your manipulation is not working. AND I WILL DO EVERYTHING TO SHOW THAT I AM NOT BEING USED.

well in today's context, politics. People, we must be careful so that we are not used by someone who is selfish and does not think of our country at all. Do not be their pawn.

How are you being their pawn? well, that is for you to think. I can't say much because everyone has their own opinions.

That's all from me, thank you.