Taemin vs Yuta

I love how I can just predict Taemin's behavior. I mean, once, Taeyong gave up the hotel room to Taemin and I felt very touched by that action. And sure enough, Taemin too. Like, Taemin switched from having a crush on Ten to Taeyong hahahaha. That's funny. Like, haih, this guy is so predictable.

But really, Taeyong is very unique. Though I don't gush over him like I do Yuta, in my mind I still hold him in high regards. His face is handsome, he's very nice and manly and acts like a leader but at the same time acts cute. He's something else. I get why SM likes him so much. I also like Taeyong, not as much as Yuta though.

There's a difference between liking Yuta and liking Taemin.

Liking Yuta makes me feel insecure. And I also have this thinking that if I ever get to meet him he'll hate me. He'll ignore me, he'll think I'm lame. And it's only a matter of time before I call it quits. I can't live being insecure every time I look at him. I mean, he's just too handsome and he looks fierce, and I guess I don't like that.

Meanwhile liking Taemin, I feel comfortable. Like, he's human. And though Taemin has achieved more than Yuta (objectively speaking), I never felt insecure. I feel more motivated. Like, "let's succeed together"

Therefore, I think I will stop liking Yuta soon. I don't know about Taemin though hahahahahaha

Let's at least write something

Currently I'm gathering the strength to do things I've been wanting to do. And I have Nakamoto Yuta to thank. He gave the motivation I needed to learn Japanese. Though I'm just learning how to read hiragana and katakana, I'll be sure to learn how to speak and also the grammar. I'll make sure to do the same with my Korean and Arabic. Can't let them go to waste. heheh.