Waiting for a new member.

The brightness of this desukutoppu is torturing me which is why I'll just look at the keyboard while typing this.

So you guessed it. I'm waiting for a new family member. We are. And today kinda make me feel more responsible towards my family and the condition of the house. It encourages me to take care of them more and must I say I feel so happy today.

I don't know what will happen in the future but we take it slow. One at a time. We are just humans, no need to expect the unexpected or whatever. Our brain don't have the ability of predicting the future so just take in what you can from the past and present. Leave the future to Allah the Almighty.

hoho

I feel so satisfied today. There's not much chores to be done and I got to relax all I want, alone.

But there are times I feel so lonely, so I watch creepy videos on youtube so I don't feel so alone. Yes, I took that suggestion seriously.

And now I'm listening to Taemin's ballad songs. I like his voice. It's like a lullaby.

I should give up on my crush. Not that I've been making any effort. It's just, maybe it's time to really move on. But maybe I want to meet him just one last time before moving on. Because I know, when I meet him, he'll still be the way he was and I'll be disappointed, as always, and then I can move on.

Pawns

You know those times you feel like you're the only one who's right and no one else has the chance to top you in your rightness???

In those times, you should stay quiet. Or if you want to talk, just let out a bit. Don't let it all goooo and hurt innocent people.

So what I'm going to say right now is, let's not be a pawn in someone else's game okay?

Someone else? Who?

Umm, anyone who's not you?

According to Shikamaru and his sensei that is Asuma sensei, it is okay to be a pawn in our own game where we can also be the King. CAN not A MUST. Because Shikamaru said, he's a pawn and it's the pawns job to protect the King, and the King is the unborn babies that will carry on the Will of Fire.

Beautiful, right?

And wars... I hate wars. Real life wars or internet wars...




Reading other people's blogs, I got some inspiration. They talk about their experience visiting new places, they post pictures and it's very interesting. But you see, I'm a lame person. My interest is not the same as the mainstream's interest so it's very hard gaining a follower. Who would want to explore what's in my mind after all, right?

I also think of doing the same but I have no experience that I can share. And look, I tend to overwrite things.

Priority

Who needs wisdom after all? Money is more important.

But I don't want to pick a fight with anyone. It seems that I'm only willing to argue with my family and not anyone else. I can tell my family what I think is right until it annoys them but I won't do that with anyone else. I wonder why.

I put the link to this blog on my twitter profile. You know why? Because it's quite hidden. It's there for everyone to see but not everyone will see it. Because not everyone, and I think no one will want to look at my twitter profile, right? Unless it's their first time following me, and all my friends have done followed me already. So there's no issue as my friends finding out about this blog EASILY.

There is a chance they might know cause I slipped up a few times. During those times I was emotionally tired and feel like telling everyone everything. Should never do that okay? Take it as a life lesson.

And I think I want to add some thing more to this blog. Like, more knowledge. Because if I want to post knowledge-y things I have to have knowledge myself, right? So it's a way of improving myself. I think of nothing else but to feel better about myself. Trust me.

I hope I won't be too busy once new sem starts.

Unplanned Discovery

Have you guys ever farted and think , 'wow, is this why God created farts?' because it feels so good and releases all the stress that were kept in your mind and body over the long years of you living?

I'm not sure if farts is as normal as pooping, but I think it's unfair to accept poop but not farts.

"Mom, look at me. I'm writing about the goodness of farting in my blog like I have nothing else to do."

And, I think I fell in love with Matpat. *putting matpat under the list of favorite youtubers*

Maybe I just love it when poeple voice out their thoughts. Like what Ryan Higa and Matpat do! They think about something and tell their opinions about it. And it's not boring. Plus they're handsome. yep.

Even when watching a countdown like, 5 creepiest videos on youtube, I don't like it if the voiceover is just describing things that I can already see and deduct myself. YOU as a youtuber must crack a joke or even put out your own theory on that video. It's more interesting , right?

And yeah, I haven't written any draft yet. Remember when I said I wanted to write a book? Yeah, let it stay a dream.

The weather has been cold lately. It'll be colder when the new sem starts.

When my self-esteem shrinks, I tend to hide.

Off the road?

So, since Ryan Higa's show is called "off the pill" and it's because he hadn't taken the pill for his ADHD yet, I can't name this entry "off the pill" as well cause I'm not taking any medications. I'll just name it off the road because that's what I want to do granted this world is free of serial killers lurking in the dark.

why did I mention Ryan Higa? Cause he's my favorite youtuber!

Also, my entries are rarely given a specific title or topic because of my impulsiveness. I do things on impulse, it's not that much planned after all.

But one thing that's on my mind lately is, more like today, is (another is, and yet another is) Game Theory. That shit is scary but it's filtered a little bit. It makes my mind wander and look at other things in a new light. Yeah, like how I look at that dark corner and imagined a living creepy robot. I'm actually glad I don't play games.

ah, i have to register my courses.

By the way, I don't know how will I live through tomorrow. I can't open the door cause my cat will get out and wander and got lost. It's too troublesome to search for him so let's prevent it from happening.

I should name most of my entries as "On An Impulse"  and "yet another impulse" or "unplanned discovery" .

Oh yeah! I originally wanted to tell you guys that I have another blog but it can't be revealed because there's a lot of stupid things in it. Why am I mentioning it then? Just wanted to tell you that, I didn't create this blog to copy my friends. I created a blog because one day,

Father : Kaknis ado blog?
Me : Takdok.
Father : Ehhh mano buleh anok pegawai IT takdok blog. Mudoh jah buat blog.

At first, I treated it as a diary. And my father followed that blog so I can't tell anything in there. Which is why I created another blog. And I expectedly matured over the years and I hope I'm finally doing things right.